Soooo, with many o’s. Hi and I miss you all, my friends to be specific. Now I heard I have fans, so, a shy wave, hi to you too.

Work has got me busy, which is good just bad timing, when you want work it doesn’t come and when you least expect it, they throw you a huge load. Oh well, baby steps never hurt and all I got is time (oh, really?) I hope so. I deliberately left my tablet at home and thank god for that last minute decision, today I had time to make phone calls, send emails, do HW’s, and organize my files somethings that I been wanting to do but my mixed up mind blocked me from doing. Really hope dad doesn’t emotionally blackmail me to go to RAK with him this weekend, I have a lot to do, stuff I can’t do during weekdays *crosses her fingers*. A good thing that I’m surprised from is how I still manage to go to gym when I come back home from work and college, I hope it stays that way, it keeps me sane in a way. I had a small brainstorming chit chat with a friend last night, and I was literally too tired to talk so I listened instead, for the most part. In my head I had this picture of a wide beautiful sea and although it was a night vision the water was amazingly light blue almost turquoise, anyways, and there was a small ship sailing, too slow too heavily packed, and with every thought and for every decision I thought I had to think of to make a decision it felt like i was throwing out bags and  pulling out anchors, I didn’t feel but I knew that if that happened that lil boat of mine would sail a bit faster freely and happy. I wonder if it was the view that contributed to that vision, I love Shangrila.

Until I find time to write again.

hugz & kisses

silen-ce

who is silence?!

your prayers…

So! b4 this  week’s weekend comes, thought I’d jot down what an amazing weekend it was last weekend, highlight of the day was the v8 400 Australian car race. My brothers were excited, maybe even too excited for me to handle, and joining them was lil khaloody *fedeeta*, the cars the excitement, the great ppl of takatof who were doing an amazing job, and remembered me too. I was left a bit knocked out from inside, with feelings that i tried hard to contain within my heart. We ended the day having a lousy dinner at Al Raha Mall, and I ended sleeping with a towel wrapping my wet hair too tired to comb it.

So, it’s Monday, and I’m lost!! :’(

heart aching, mood swings, sleepless nites, no inspiration and a long to do list and alot of pending work. sigh.

I finished re-organizing my room, now i can call it mine, b4 it was my sis’s!! coz you’d see a pile of papers everywhere, boxes filled with books, huge ones, plus all sizes..and papers agghhhh, now there is no book or paper in sight except in the book shelf and tidy boxes, and i added more photo frames and candles, table clothes and cute stuff… but my mood is still switched off, or better said, my inspiration. Despite all the -ve.ness in me, I know that tomorrow will be a better day, insha’allah.

just felt like writing. nothing special.

Dear diray;

Its been ages, as usual I get so busy with stuff by the end of the day I just wana lay down and sleep it off. My bro’s came back from rak last Thursday and I took them to the corniche for bike rides and go-carting which they enjoyed to the max, and pointing at the cars passing by, look look it a Lamborghini, ohh there’s a Ferrari!!, while i only jump up and get excited pointing haaay look @ the cute miniiii!!!!  boys will be boys right?, & girls will be girls :p So now AD is filled with prestigious cars, Bentley’s and RR’s etc and I have never seen more red colored everything in my life, god I hate valentines day!! what happened to my country?

my to do list is filled with call* and buy* things, and my heart is filled with forget* & forgive*

but will I ever forgive myself? :”x, ops i need a hug!!

p.s: promise more pix in my next post