I never lost a friend, due to a misunderstanding a fight or whatever, we all go thru rough times and we all need time alone and we all get busy in life and despite all that I thought I knew who my best friends were, I do, I just miscalculated them. High school friends, university friends, work friends, random even stranger friends. It’s hard to reach to me.. thats what most ppl tell me after a good period of time and I can understand why, for example the first two years of my university life was called me, myself and my walkman. I would walk to and from classes with my headphones playing something loud, thats usually what I do when I’m mad/alone… it wasn’t till I moved in with the IT girls that I got to interact with some who are now my best friends, 3amooh my roommate, meera, sa7ar, heddoty, um yazooya, and lots of others too. “it was like you were an angel sent from heaven” my roommates first impression, or so what she has always told me, even after graduation we still were very close, and like any best friend I used to call her to say how bored, frustrated I was or just how much I loved her. And it was because of that and the fact that I trusted her the most that I also feel like it was the only reason I lost her, and my fights to just try to find a way around these difficult feelings that replaced the old ones was just a waste of time. Sometimes I look out the window and drift away with my thoughts and it hits me how difficult its been without her, how many stories I have to tell how many moments I wished she was there with me… Disappointment filled that empty space, one by one..

رغبة مجنونة تراودني الآن …أود أن العب بالماء والصابون
اصنع فقاعات صابون تتطاير بالأفق …وأتابع انا تطايرها في الهواء …
وأود ان اطلق على كل فقاعة أسماء اشخاص خذلوني

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