Sometimes I wake up so confused I have to wait for a few seconds to remember what time it is, and what I have to do…!! Ramadan has really mixed up my timings, I still love the peacefulness in the air, but these few days I’m just so mad, @ myself more than anything or anyone else. Just a lot of changes and a lot of unnecessary emotions, fear with a lil of confusion, ok make that a big spoon full of confusion!! *sigh* this meal is bitter, sour and cold!! not looking forward for eid at all!! I wana sleep it away. I got an email request for the 3rd time asking abt what happened to my story i used to post chapters from, so since I’m not in a good mood to write now, I might as well post a lil from a chapter that I never completed…, so enjoy~

” It was so easy for him to let go of everything, and not look back to see her fall to her knees as Rashid caught Reem and hugged her as she cried. ‘ I didn’t do anything wrong, he won’t let me explain and it’s no use coz…’ Reem was making no sense, ’shhhhh its’s gona be ok sis’: said Rashid trying to calm her down.. for Reem it was like someone just switched off the lights and left her in complete darkness with nothing but broken promises and memories. Weeks passed and the saying that time heals all wounds, was surely not true in this case. Reem was losing weight from the lack of appetite for food, her eyes plain blank and she rarely spoke. Her voice seemed foreign to her and her family, she just didn’t feel alive anymore.

In her room Reem would lay tiredly and watch old episodes of her favorite TV series not minding if she had already seen the same episodes 3 times already, and whenever she closed her eyes she would sleep for minutes or more and wake up shaken and grasping her pillow like she was about to tear it apart. She refused to put away all the pictures of Hamid from her walls and shelves despite her families arguments with her to do so. But when she locks the door it gets worse, taking all the photo albums out and spreading them around her in the middle of the room and talking to Hamid like he was next to her, calling his number over and over hoping to hear his voice but getting nothing but the operator telling her the phone is switched off. The emptiness Hamid left behind was too much, nothing and no one was able to fill that space and Reem was just a victim of love. She went to sleep that day after spraying Hamid’s favorite perfume on her pillows and bed sheets, stared for a while at the empty room in the darkness before gradually drifting off to sleep, warm tears came down her eyes as she held tightly to her pillow…”

chocolate & vanilla

s7oor

because…

“Keep tellin myself that its not worth it
I already know I don’t deserve it
But if its from you I don’t mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare”

P.S: You need to get on my level,
‘cuz right now you just look like a fool
I’m so above all of this and you!!